Friday, December 31, 2010

All eyes on the calander Another year

2010 has been a really long year for me.

All eyes on the calendar
Another year I claim of total indifference
To here, the days pile up
With decisions to be made
I'm sure all of them were wrong

Into this song I send myself
And with these drinks I plan to collapse
And forget this wasted year, these wasted years
Devoted friends, they disappear

And I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you
Some decisions you don't make
I guess it's just like breathing and not wanting to
Yeah, there are some things you can't fake

Well, I guess that it's typical
To cling to memories you'll never get back again
And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago
Or a friend that you used to know
And there below his frozen face
You wrote the name and that ancient date
And you can't believe that he's really gone
When all that's left is a fucking song

And I'm sorry about the phone call and waking you
I know that it is late
But thank you for talking, because I needed to
Some things just can't wait...

Monday, November 29, 2010

Holiday Blues

"Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself
Behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the whole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever" - Epica 'Cry to the Moon'

I slept from Saturday afternoon to late Sunday morning. I decided on my informative speech to be on 'False-Flags' and my persuasive speech on 'Aspartame' they are both due tomorrow. I have procrastinated so much. I know what it is.

Its the holiday blues.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Dear One!
I received this message on my birthday and i am now passing it on to you. i'm sending you so much love for your birthday and prayers that this be the best year yet. may all your dreams come true.

here's the special message:

Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu,
Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu,
Happy Birrrrthday Dear Jonathon,
Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu!

A few years back, not so long ago, heaven and earth erupted into a major celebration with the news of your impending adventure into this very time and space. You see, someone like Jonathon Moore doesn't come along all that often. In fact, there's never been a single one like you, nor is there ever ANY possibility that another will come again. You're an Angel among us. Someone, whose eyes see what no others will EVER see, whose ears hear what no others will EVER hear, and whose perspective and feelings will NEVER, ever be duplicated. Without YOU, the Universe, and ALL THAT IS, would be sadly less than it is.

Quite simply:

You're the kind of person, Jonathon,
Who's hard to forget,
A one-in-a-million
To the people you've met.
Your friends are as varied
As the places you go,
And they all want to tell you
In case you don't know:
That you make a big difference
In the lives that you touch,
By taking so little
And giving so much!

Jonathon, you are so AWESOME! For your birthday, friends and angels from every corner of the Universe, including buddies you didn't know you had, will be with you to wish you the HAPPIEST of days and an exciting new year in time and space. You won't be alone!


PS - this is going to be YOUR year!!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

There is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live
And so I do what I do and at least I exist
What could mean more than this?
What would mean more?
Mean more?

"Sometimes it seems like we're all living in some kind of prison. And the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It's good to get really dressed up once in a while. And admit the truth: that when you really look closely? People are so strange and so complicated that they're actually... beautiful. Possibly even me. "

Monday, October 25, 2010

Brand New - Jesus (Official)

I have been listening to this song over and over today. When I saw the video..

I had to post it somewhere. Not facebook though. No.

Today is a solemn, sad day. No rants, no venting.

I know these are not the actual lyrics to Limousine (by the same band, same album) but this is what I always hear..

"So free..yeah you were right about me. But can I get myself out from underneath
This guilt that will crush me. And in the quiet I saw how sad inside you were. He was bored and tired of my laments. He said, "I died for you one time, but never again" Never again.

It reminds me up on top of that volcano we were laying out under the stars, talking about the meaning of it all. And he said, "You known Moore, if I ever die, I am haunting the fuck out of you. I laugh, and said, "I doubt that, but if you do, I will do the same." Little did I think that a month later I would see him..never again except in the endless haunting.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

I Question Consensus Reality

When we look back into history, we always wonder why people did what they did? I think when history looks back at our time...our future generations will be extremely perplexed. They will wonder.. how could they (and possibly 'we') be so dumb?. Why did we do what we did? How could we, in such a 'information age', so unabashedly be willfully ignorant? Will they ask, How could 'they' not see it? How could they not see how governments, corporations, and special interests had such a strangle-hold on their lives?

"None are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free."
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Did they pursue ignorance as a coping mechanism? Were they really willfully ignorant?

'Idiocracy' celebritized?
(I always wonder why that is rewarded..emulated)

It will probably be debated and argued that the mental dullness could be attributed to the everyday poisons they willfully enjoyed either consciously or unconsciously, with or without their consent (or even manufactured consent). Or the archaic systems of education, repetitions of memorization for examinations are designed to test one-sided (pun intended) left brain activity and encourage conformity in thought. (And those who are right brain labeled 'mentally ill' or inept.) Which in turn, led to specialized and compartmentalized so-called experts. Who even with a notice of looking at the "bigger pictures" were assaulted with mockeries 'conspiracy'. That there was a prevalence of an unquestioned belief in their everyday norms and social structures. Everyday everything. A mass manufactured egotism of 'we know all their is to know' so what do we need to know?

But such was the generations of the past.

There has always been a cyclic evolution and de-evolution of the human sojourn...

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A few quotes by the Founding Fathers on the threat of tyranny.

A few quotes by the Founding Fathers on the threat of tyranny.

"Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety."
— Benjamin Franklin

"All tyranny needs to gain a foothold is for people of good conscience to remain silent."
—Thomas Jefferson

"Enlighten the people, generally, and tyranny and oppressions of body and mind will vanish like spirits at the dawn of day."
—Thomas Jefferson

"When the people fear the government, there is tyranny; when the government fears the people, there is liberty."
—Thomas Jefferson

"Experience hath shewn, that even under the best forms of government those entrusted with power have, in time, and by slow operations, perverted it into tyranny."
—Thomas Jefferson

"Government is not reason, it is not eloquence, it is force; like fire, a troublesome servant and a fearful master. Never for a moment should it be left to irresponsible action."
—George Washington

"Overgrown military establishments are under any form of government inauspicious to liberty, and are to be regarded as particularly hostile to liberty."
—George Washington

"Guard against impostures of pretended patriotism."
—George Washington

"If the freedom of speech is taken away then dumb and silent we may be led, like sheep to the slaughter."
—George Washington

"The means of defense against a foreign danger historically have become the instruments of tyranny at home."
—James Madison

"If tyranny and oppression come to this land, it will be under the guise of fighting a foreign enemy."
—James Madison

"I believe there are more instances of the abridgement of freedom of the people by gradual and silent encroachments by those in power than by violent and sudden usurpations. ... The means of defense against foreign danger historically have become the instruments of tyranny at home..If tyranny and oppression come to this land, it will be under the guise of fighting a foreign enemy." President James Madison

"When once a republic is corrupted, there is no possibility of remedying any of the growing evils but by removing the corruption and restoring its lost principles; every other correction is either useless or a new evil."
— Thomas Jefferson

"It is the religion of ignorance that tyranny begins."
—Benjamin Franklin

"Rebellion to tyrants is obedience to God"
—Benjamin Franklin

"It is the first responsibility of every citizen to question authority."
—Benjamin Franklin

"It is the duty of the patriot to protect its country from its government."
—Thomas Paine

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Sovereign to our own Sovereignty.

orginally posted in livejournal
Apr. 27th, 2010 at 10:54 PM

“The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.”

You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy.

"The world is like a ride at an amusement park. It goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills and it's very brightly coloured and it's very loud and it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question: Is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, they say, "Hey - don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because, this is just a ride...” But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that, you ever notice that? And let the demons run amok. Jesus - murdered; Martin Luther King - murdered; Malcolm X - murdered; Gandhi - murdered; John Lennon - murdered; Reagan... wounded. But it doesn't matter because: It's just a ride. And we can change it anytime we want. It's only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings and money. A choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love, instead, see all of us as one. Here's what we can do to change the world, right now, to a better ride. Take all that money that we spend on weapons and defenses each year and instead spend it feeding and clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would many times over, not one human being excluded, and we could explore space, together, both inner and outer, forever, in peace.”

- Bill Hicks

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Percy Jackson and the Olympians

Persephone's pearl rest on the blackjack's 33 in the Lotus Hotel and Casino (The Island of Lotus Eaters)

No One Would Riot For Less

*Cross posted from my livejournal

 They moved someone in next door. He is having a party. Every friday and saturday he has a party. I don't like parties. 

Today was nice. I woke up with people washing their cars, people mowing there lawns, going about their daily business. It was a nice day so I figured I would get out. I took a long drive to the North Shore of the island. I went up and watched the planes at Dillingham airfield. I picked up brochures for Hand Gliding, Parasailing, Biplane and Glider Rides. My best-friend lj user="soverign_"/  is coming up here at the end of May. I planing on doing some of the activities available there. It will be so good to take some time out and just relax. To hang out with a life-long friend. 

In two days I will re-enlist in the Air Force. Another four years. I really don't want to and I could write pages on why. I written in this journal how much trouble I've had with this decision. I've changed my mind several times, decided to, decided not to, struggle with separation, and re-enlistment ect. I have trouble supporting two "overseas contingency operations" based on lies. A co-worker and buddy of mine just got out. Before he left, he told of how he saw radiated children (from depleted uranium weapons) used in Iraq. How children as young as eight were given guns and used as human shields. He talked of how their shot up faces will haunt him and he just can do it anymore. Tonight I listened to Peter Dale Scott talk of the huge drug trade of opium in Afghanistan. It really is the 'Land of Oz'. Fields of Poppies. I remember just recently seeing a news report from my hometown Columbus, Indiana, where a young marine was shot up by contractors high on opium. It reminds me of the Pat Tilman story. This 'Pat Tilman-like story'  happens more than the American public could handle. If they knew how much is covered up, how much is misinfomation, disinformation, covered-up, or not covered..if they know about what is perpetuated by this government, Kyrgyzstan and Tailand-like events would be happening everyday.  I've also seen the video that was on wiki-leaks. That crap happens all the time as well.
I tell myself by re-enlisting, I can do my part to stopping events like that. 

Speaking of Kyrgyzstan, I have a friend at Manas. He is telling me first hand info about what is happening there. I plan on writing about it. I'll probably write a news blitz on recent events. 

Tomorrow, I plan on working out my speech after I take the oath of enlistment. I think my main points will be on fidelity to the constitution and this quote- 

"I hate war as only a solider who has lived it can, only as one who has seen its brutality, its futility, its stupidity.
- Dwight D. Eisenhower 

I purchased veggie burgers, hamburgers, hot dogs, and kosher hot dogs for a "burger burn" on the beach after the enlistment ceremony. 

Yesterday I spent most of the afternoon writing my statement for OSI (Office of Special Investigation). It has been close to six months since Butta's suicide. I find it good that they are winding down. Hopefully, this means that the investigation can be closed and information be made public via Freedom of Information Act. 

Speaking of suicide, my ever present disgust for the media..well I can't watch more than five minutes without complete repulsion. There really is nothing "programmed" on there without some sort of agenda. Apparently, some young girl commits suicide from teasing and it is all over the so-called'news'. Why don't they do a story on ANY of the over 600+ military suicides? Oh, wait, that would bring up issues of consciousness in war. Of soldiers who see what is happening and they can't take it anymore. So why the focus of this one girl? I guess because of the hate crimes bill and cybersecurity bill.  It seems all draconian measures are put in place under the guise of 'for the children' or a pretty face nowadays. 
Fascism: You really think it would be this obvious

I think I will write (like I have many a times) on the propaganda-machine formally known as the tv. They don't call it programming for nothing. 

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Piecing together (pun intended) the origins of Easter

Easter is a tale as old as time..literally. It is all about death and resurrection in congruence with the astronomical vernal equinox. This has been told throughout time. 

Assyria: Semiramis and Nimrod.
Babylon: Ishtar (pronounced Easter) and Tammuz.
Egypt: Isis and Osiris
Syria: Astarte and Bel or Baal (Marduk) (later Venus Urania and Adonis).
Greece: Aphrodite and Adonis and Dionysus
Rome: Kybele and Attis (or Venus and Adonis).
Ect. Ect.

Halfway between the solstices in late March and in late September, there are two days when the northern and southern hemispheres receive the same amount of sunlight and the days and nights are of the same length. Then the tilt of the Earth's axis is not towards the Sun, but lies at a right angle to an imaginary Earth-Sun line. At the Equator, the Sun is directly overhead. These days are the equinoxes. Equinox means "equal night". Ancient people regarded the equinoxes, like the solstices, as significant moments of the year.

People have recognized the vernal equinox for thousands of years. There is no shortage of rituals and traditions surrounding the coming of spring. Many early peoples celebrated for the basic reason that their food supplies would soon be restored. The date is significant in Christianity because Easter always falls on the first Sunday after the first full moon after the vernal equinox. It is also probably no coincidence that early Egyptians built the Great Sphinx so that it points directly toward the rising Sun on the day of the vernal equinox.

The first day of spring also marks the beginning of Nowruz, the Persian New Year. The celebration lasts 13 days and is rooted in the 3,000-year-old tradition of Zorastrianism.


Before the occasion of Easter which celebrates the resurrection of Jesus, people celebrated the Vernal equinox and the rebirth of Spring. In ancient history the resurrection or rebirth of pagan gods was commemorated at the Spring or Vernal Equinox. One of the first stories ever recorded of death and then resurrection is the Egyptian myth of Isis and Osiris. The goddess Isis and the god Osiris ruled an ancient land in peace and bliss. This ended when Set, Osiris' brother, murdered Osiris in a fit of jealousy. He cut up his body and scattered it throughout the world. Isis was heartbroken and gathered back these pieces. She took them to Anubis, lord of the underworld who brought Osiris back to life. Through the reunion of Isis and Osiris the sun god Horus was born. Out of the darkness came the light in the many different "Horus" of the nations over the eons. The "Osiris Pattern" at the Vernal Equinox was applied to a host of pagan gods and godmen; including Jesus at Easter no less!

(Side note: Resurrection motif. Osiris/Horus - where we get the word hours from - are 'sun' gods. Jesus was the 'son (i.e Sun)' of God. Horus was the 'son' of the 'sun god' (Osiris/Ra/'Ray") as well. So "Sunrise" service, is nothing more than "Sun-Rise" service. Horus everyday fought Set - hence Sun/Set, to "rise to a new day" The equinox is where there is more daylight than darkness, ie. the sun/son overcoming darkness. The Sun brings forth spring aka, new light and life. A new Horizon, 'Horus Rising'?)

Aphrodite the goddess of love and fertility fell in love with the handsome Adonis. She hid him in a box so no one could see him. She then gave the box to Persephone, the queen of the underworld for safekeeping. She opened the box and also fell in love with Adonis and refused to return him to Aphrodite. Aphrodite mourned her loss, and as a result the land became barren. Zeus, her father tried to intervene, but neither goddess would give up Adonis. Zeus finally decreed that Adonis would spend a third of the year with each goddess and one third of the year alone. So each Spring Adonis returns to Aphrodite and each winter he spends with Persephone in the underworld.

Dionysus, the god of wine was the son of Zeus and Semele, a mortal princess. Zeus promised Semele anything she asked of him. Semele was pregnant and asked only to see him in his splendor as the god of gods. Zeus knew no mortal could witness this sight and live. Despite this Semele insisted. She died and Zeus took their baby from her body and hid it within his own until the baby was born. Dionysus was raised by nymphs, and when he grew up he travelled to faraway lands, performing feats that proved his godhead. What he longed for was the mother he never knew, so he went to the underworld to find her. When he found her he defied death and escaped death with his mother. He brought her to Mt. Olympus where she was allowed to dwell with the gods.

The worship of Dionysus took place not in temples or wild places, but in the theatres, the plays put on about him were acts of worship and the forerunners of today's "Passion Plays." Dionysus was killed, but because he had overcome death, he rose again. As the god of the vine he dies each year and then resurrects. His rites were held in spring, when the vines put forth new shoots. In all the numerous myths having to do with resurrection, the element that causes the resurrection is love.


Each season of the year is associated with a direction and time of day. Spring is associated with an eastern direction and the dawn. This is in honor of the goddess of spring and the east, Eostre. The time of dawn (new beginnings or rebirth) is also associated with her, since she was also called goddess of the dawn. Pagan Anglo-Saxons made offerings of colored eggs to this goddess Eostre. They placed them among grave goods in burials, as a symbol of rebirth. Egyptians also placed eggs in tombs and pagan Greeks placed eggs on the fresh graves of their loved ones to ensure resurrection of the dead by the magic associated with the eggs.


In Mexico, in the Aztec capital of Tenochtitlan is the Templo Mayor, a pyramid surmounted by two symmetrical temples. This pyramid has been called a functioning astronomical observatory whose main purpose was to announce the equinoxes. The fact that the Aztecs aligned their principal religious structure with the equinoctial sunrise is partly to be explained by the fact that they celebrated the main festival of the god Xipe Totec at the vernal equinox.

In the Amazon, the equinoxes coincide with the start of the two rainy seasons- one in March, the other in September. The Desana and Barasana Indians see connections between everything that happens on Earth - and particularly, the availability of fish and game animals with what they see in the sky. They see the night sky as a great brain, with its two hemispheres divided by the Milky Way. According to their myths, on the First Day the Sun Father fertilized the world at its center by creating a perfectly vertical rod. It was from this spot that the first people emerged. This place is the equator. Each spring and fall equinox, when the Sun is directly overhead, and an upright staff casts no shadow, these Indians believe the Sun's rays are again directly penetrating the Earth, making the world fertile and new.

I think you get the idea; "new birth or raising from the dead" and no greater time could be found to commemorate such "myth" that at the same time the earth was re-awakeing from the "dead of winter"...the Spring Equinox.Spring (Vernal) Equinox

So to bust your bubble..In reality, the gospel tale reflects the annual "crossification" of the sun through the vernal equinox (Spring), at which time the sun is "resurrected," as the day begins to become longer than the night.

More pieces -- Just do a simple search of anything Easter and Origins.

Council of Nicea Easter (holiday) Controversy Britannica Online
Easter: Christian or Pagan
The Babylonian Origins of Easter (Ishtar) 
Brief History of the Origins and Symbols of Easter